Who are you, now that your mind is your own?
Are you playing the victim?
Are you still trapped in fear?
Are you moving in anger?
Are you living your life as your own or are you still making excuses in comfort?
When things get tough, do you:
Return to the past and relive the feeling, same mistakes different days?
OR
Do you recall the familiarity, greet the feeling and make a change?
I need you to remember something.
Your biggest hurt was, feeling like your mind was not your own.
Like your body was misused and disowned.
Like your childhood was the only piece you owned.
Like the moonlight was your power and the sunlight your owner.
Like your words were unheard.
Like your family was the enemy and everything you tried to do was out of envy.
Like you were a fuck up and a disgrace to this so-called human race.
Like your daily life was a big fucked up blurr.
Those nights when the only way you could cope was to relive all the fuck ups in life that hurt.
Left Feeling lifeless and empty, needing connection.
Sunlight returning and you are still slurring, everything starts blurring so you sleep hoping you can stop the hurting.
Writing poems, confessing but you find yourself regressing, feeling alone but not wanting to be lonely.
Being disregarded as your partner makes you feel abandoned.
Then as-soon-as he felt the need for attention. He would demand that you submit to his sick and twisted desires. If you dare deny him, he would accuse you of disrespecting him. Being manipulated until you could not help but cave in.
You soon follow in his shame trying to numb a certain pain.

Growing up you spent your days in the sunlight rays, under the Mulberry tree you learned to be free.
You use to write about those glorious days, writing and dreaming about those days became your only escape.
Growing up, you use to be afraid of the dark because you couldn’t see what was hiding behind the tree.
You began to obsess and you started to digress.
Living in the night became your only way to fight, hiding from the light like you have lost all your site.
If you knew then what you know now, or at least knew how to use the light to burn the monsters lurking at night.
You would not have constantly felt the need to fight that wrong can’t be right.
Whenever the need for you to plead arises.
Ask yourself, are you living at night using the moon as your light or is it the only way for you to win the fight?
When something is done at night and you can face the light. There will be no
need to hide as you know, what is done at night needs also to be lived in the light.
When you choose to live at night remember to never give up your light. As your mind is now your own. Your feelings are yours and yours alone. This life is yours to own.
“REMEMBER, WHAT ROAMS IN THE MOONLIGHT CAN’T FACE THE DAYLIGHT YOU KNOW IT AIN’T RIGHT”. Never give up the fight, this is your light. No matter where your mind goes. Don’t go back to what you knew, because someone fucked up your views.