The day I found what I was searching for was the day I stopped running.
A year ago today, I felt uncomfortable in my skin. I have always fought more for the comfort of those around me. I forgot about my comfort.
I recall feeling empty, but I kept on giving so much of myself away that I had nothing left to refill my cup.
I felt the need to run, to chase to do anything to find that fulfillment that was missing in me.
So I ran.
I took myself on a soul-searching journey. I knew exactly what I was searching for.

The little girl, that use to sit under the trees and sketch a world full of wonders around her, the little girl who dreamed about her fairy tale future where she was loved.

Somewhere between then and now, the ugliness of the world made her believe that she needed to give all of herself to feel the love she had always dreamt of. She felt the love she had for others was the love she didn’t deserve.
I now know why she has always preferred to be on her own. She had time to feel
the love she gave to others was the self-love she had forgotten about.
As time went by, the feeling of a missing peace began to feel more complete the more it felt complete, the more observing I became to be. As if I could see more clearly what is infront of me. The best I can explain is that a hurricane was settling down inside of me.
One day on my journey, I walked past a row of trees, and I heard a familiar voice calling me.

Everything felt familiar, the birds the bees and the trees. I felt like I could see the smells and hear the colors around me.
I followed the voice, which led me to a little girl sketching under the trees, dreaming about her future, and how wonderfully loved she would be. When she looked up at me, I remembered what that familiar voice was trying to say to me;
This is us,
You found what we lost;

I know now I am her, and she is me.
We will always be the only one’s that can fill the void because at the end of the day,
I am the only one who will ever understand that little girl’s dream. Because I am her and she is me. Home is where your heart is and my heart is with. me.

I am home.